This is my purpose, and at times it scares me a little. I know I have grown, but I feel like I have so much growth to go. For me at least sometimes life just seems to much or just can't quite hack it. I feel like my change is not enough. I feel far from where I should be, and no where near being able to be in the presence of God. Then I take a second and think....Does God want me back?

As I move forward I make it a goal to recognize the change in myself, not in a prideful manner or anything, but to see where I was and how far I have come. " I will boast of my God, for in his strength I can do all things..." Growth is not easy, and forces me to step out of my comfort zone and stretch, but I know with the help of God a servant as weak as me, can be a valuable tool.
I have noticed one down fall to this chance to grow. I expect others to have to change and grow as I am. Looks like pride creepin' in. My life is mine, and the changes I go through are lessons I need to learn. Sometimes I think we think how unfair...why me...they should have to do this...
I know I have at least thought this at times. God gives us the chance to change and grow not just for ourselves, but so we can be a more useful tool in His hands to help others.

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